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Savannah March 19. 1851

My darling wife,

Your regular letter of the 11th & 12th reached me only this morning having been delayed by some irregularity of the mails. You complain my dear one of a want of candor on my part, and feel at times as though I were unclear from you. I do not think so Tilly. you know not how my heart yearns to see you & my dear little ones - how lonely I am without you. If I dared I would would leave for New York next Saturday. The reason why I could not express any opinion about renting the house is because I feel so uncertain whether I shall be able to do anything when I get to New York , whether I can earn one dollar. I will now my dear Mamma endeavor to give you as full and minute description of my health, and feelings as I possibly can. As to my strength I cannot say whether I have gained or lost for I do nothing to tax it. A very slight exertion, especially going up stairs, puts me entirely out of breath, and sets me coughing. I have a great deal of that dry feverish heat in the palms of my hands and on the soles of my feet & my pulse is regularly from 100 to 105 per minute. I was weighed day before yesterday and mu weight was 157 1/2. the same that it was about two weeks since. That which distresses me more than anything else is the inability to sleep. For three nights in succession I have lain wide awake until