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My dear Brother,

Jesse has just brought me a letter from you and although it is after nine o'cock for tonight I feel that I must scribble you some what in regards to my feelings upon matters and things about which you have written to me and Brother Raymond &c &c - In the first place let me tell you I am alone tonight and somewhat indisposed or recovering from a slight indisposition. Have not felt very well at times for several weeks and last Wednesday morning while in school I was seized with a very severe headache and sickness of stomach so that I was obliged to come home and take my bed. Was not relieved from vomiting until middle of the afternoon; then had considerable fever all the evening but was well attended to so that it was brought down and Friday afternoon (yesterday) was able to go in to the Rhetorical Exercises and tonight I feel pretty well though not quite right yet. I wish I could see you for I could tell you my feelings so much better than I can write them. Raymond received your letter the first of this week and the news it contained in regard to Erasmus filled me with horror - Engaged in the wholesale and retail liquor business! Can it be? He who has seen a Father's noble faculties and powers destroyed, all the better and holier feelings of his nature debased, his usefulness frustrated, his life made dishonored and

Sabbath - Raymond preached this morning, had a good discourse. Have been reading Channing's discourse upon the death of Dr. Follen in which he argues sufferings and trials are right and a part of the Divine plan and forever good - read it, My love to Erasmus and family Write me if you can before coming here. This scribbling you must excuse for it has been written in the greatest haste you know I can write better. Sarah

Perhaps I should not have written you so much as I have for I know you never would have thought for a moment of complying with Erasmus' request had you not been discouraged in money matters but when you consider the money you would get by this means a great portion of it would be the hard earnings of worse than widows and orphans I know you will not do it - you are a son of mankind in this respect. It seems to me I cannot have Erasmus in the business. Raymond would write you but as I have said he will not now as he has other letters to prepare for the office.