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Page 182 pleasant and good to be there. Bless the Lord! I have never yet been to a prayer meeting since my conversion that I have not enjoyed and revelled in the love of the Lord, although, when I return home, they often lead to thoughts of self that are far from pleasing. To-night I have weighed myself in the ballance of God's judgement. First, I put in my repentance in one scale and God's mercy in the other and the former rose up like a feather - I then tried my faith in one scale with God's love in the other and faith flew up like the feather and disappeared. I next tried all my agony, and fears, and tears for sin, with a portion of the seeat from Jesus brow and they ascended with a unclear and were not. Again I put in one scale all the good deeds I had done, with a thorn from Jesus' crown in the other, when up went all my works and were scattered out of sight. Then I essayed my righteousness against a bit of the beautiful garment of Christ, and away it went, quicker than thought, into nothing. I then put my repentance, faith, agony, tears, fears, good deeds, my righteousness and all I possess in one side, and one drop of the precious blood of Jesus in the other, and up again these all went together and vanished in black smoke, while the pre-