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with God's help, and last Sabbath I was baptized and joined the church here which is under Mr. Carey's pastoral care. God has blessed me abundantly Sarah and I would praise him for it.

    When I spoke in their Covenant meeting the Thursday before, I was very much excited, and apprehended that I should be on Sunday, but I had strength given me from above.     I never was so calm before in my whole life, and I think I may truly say never so happy.    In the afternoon I was permitted to commune with God's people. 
      You know what that blessed privilage is, and it was sanctified to my good.
       My great wish in which all others are merged, and my highest aim, to which all others are subservient, is that I may live a true christian life, that my influence may be exerted to win souls to Christ.   What a new aspect every thing has assumed to me, such a quiet calm within, where erst it was all turmoil; for I knew my duty but did it not. 
      I know that you will rejoice with me, and be glad for me.    I want to see you, to pour forth my whole soul in your sympathizing heart this? joy and rejoice with you. 
   Are you getting better, or did this warm weather we have recently had, quite overcome you as it has some of us.    I am not well at all, not getting better but rather worse as far as I can see.      No one, excepting those that have been like afflicted can tell or think , of the peculiarly discouraging feelings which trouble me. 
  Everything which I do wearys me so, tires me