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Savannah March 19, 1851 My darling wife Your regular letter of the 11th & 12th reached me only this morning having been delayed by some irregularity of the mails. You complain my dear one of a errant of candor on my part, and feel at times as though I were waned from you. I do not think so Tilly, you know not how my heart yearns to see you & my dear little ones. How lonely I am without you. If I dared I would would leave for New York next Saturday. The reason why I could not express any opinion about viewing the house is because I feel so uncertain whether I shall be able to do anything when I get to New York, whether I can earn one dollar. I will now my dear mamma endeavor to give you as full and minute description of my health and feelings as I forcably can. As to my strength, I cannot say whether I have gained or lost for I do nothing to tax it. As very slight exertion is especially going up stairs puts me entirely out of breath, and sets me coughing. I have a great deal of that dry feverish heat in the palms of my hands and on the soles of my feet. My pulse is regularly from 100 to 105 per minute. I was weighed day before yesterday and my weight was 157 1/2 the same that it was about two weeks since. That which disrupts me more than anything else is the inability to sleep. For three nights in succession I have lain wide awake until