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I am going to a competition in Ill. near Salisbury Ill. River.S.B. Connecticut Jun 15. On my way to the Ill. State C[?] Dear Nathan, I am mad or crazy or something else as good. If I was ther I would thrash you till you couldn't see the moon's satelites. What in the world did you make that arangement with Sarah to go to Marietta for? Did you want to kill me? Didn't you know that my being lives within hers, & that our final seperation would be death to me? Didn't you know that I had not understood her intentions towards me? that I told her I did not know what her note meant? Didn't you know that it was impossible for me to change in my feelings towards her, or be indefinite in my intentions & expressions of them to her? Didn't you know that it would be impossible for me to ?treat your sister? That I was not that kind of a man? and yet you made an arangement with her to go to Marietta, when you knew she was ready to come to me. You both thought I was n[crossed out] or a little out of the way, was not doing what I ought to do, & yet you neither of you said a word to me about it. Six weeks or nearly so was I at Marietta after you knew that I was laboring & suffering under a false impression, and not a word was said to correct it.

[On the side] Webster is still at Wheeling. I know nothing of him. This new Meeting house was dedicated he was ordained I suppose last month. ? writing.