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stances will not be in a situation that we can sell it for a year or two yet & we may never have nay benefit from it. I do not like the condition of affairs but I do not see how it is possible to change them. I wish I could see you & talk the whole matter over with you. You & I now both understand how our pecuniary matters are & I think we both have the same wishes. I feel as if I could not decide upon anything that pertains to our matters without fully consulting with you & having your advice upon the subject. It is not pleasant for you or me to live so far from each other & if possible I want to have our matters so arranged that it will not be necessary for me to be away form my family in order to procure means for our support. I prefer much to live with my family even if I have to live in a more humble way than to live without them. In a letter I wrote you a few days ago I told you how much value your presence was to me & you know how anxious a parent is to have his children near him, but notwithstanding all this if it will make life easier for you & better for the children of course it is my duty to deny myself the pleasures of home & to labor where I can procure the most comforts for you & the children. I am thankful for this situation as it enables me to pay up in part what we have spent since we went down to the farm & I wish it would last till I could pay it all up & fix up our house down there. To put the books in shape they ought to be here it would take me till Sept. but I do not expect Mr. Walker will feel like having any more done than will take me till the first of July. I expect him at home now in a day or two & will then discuss the matter with him. If it should so happen that I remain here till Sept. I think we had better if possible keep house here for it will not be possible to get board except to the Hotel on acc of our children