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4 than is apparent on the face of their acts - it has been at the expense of openiss and condones on my part. I have always treated my fellow men as though they would be regardful of me - and always with reference to their feelings - suffering if I supposed I caused them to suffer - my sympathy has been unbounded. Thou wilt find me now, more selfish, more petulant - easier to ascribe motives to actions. I have learned men better - but myself is not much bettered thereby. I have seen in this past year - humanity in every distorted shape - in almost every case of trial and suffering - in deserving mathenas from every conscientious and honest man - and now entitled to all sympathy and consolation. Such is the world - this world run mad in their rush for gold. As for me I am full of imperfections! Wherever I turn sorrow and only sorrow for myself returns answer to your inquiries. I am no more noble - no more firm to duty and right - no freer from enslaving passion - no more sinful and sincere - no more candid and true - no more pious - no more prudent or thoughtful - of no stronger judgement than when you last worked after me. Still the follower of impulse - governed by the circumstances of to day - impatient under restraint - undignified in conduct - volatile in failings and actions! Ah! I am full of imperfections. Why cannot I be as good as other men - beloved by all - respected and esteemed. My Natal Day! I would be like Brutus who won this praise from his enemy Antony. This was the noblest Roman of them all. All the conspirators save only hem Did that they did in envy of great Caesar: He, only in a general honest thought, And common good to all, made one of them. His life was gentle: And the elements So mixed in him - that Nature might stand up And say to all the world, "This was a man. = "

To be a man - "that honest man who is the noblest work God!' - I am impetuous - quick erring in judgement, full of mishap and mistake. To always act as feeling my relations to God - my fellows and myself - considerate - thoughtful - be this my character.