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work in this city and all things indicated that it was the will of God that I should prosecute the work, and I willingly gave way to there impressions and resisted the importunities of my dear mother and the promptings of my own heart. I did not, however, act fully in accordance with the dictates of my conscience, and the desires the Lord had given me in regard to this blessed work, but listened to the arguments and persuasions of my pastor and brethren? - who thought that the low state of our church should induce me to devote myself wholly to its welfare - and, in a measure, I abandoned it to others. I have always felt since - and feel it now - that all my pecuniary troubles are the result of this disobedience to God's will, and if the answers to my prayers are now used to teach me more perfect obedience and truer humility, by giving me a present hope, to be disappointed by further events I shall consider unclear just and deserving. Partial following the indications of God's will is not the way to secure the blessings sought, and therefore I shall have no cause of complaint if He with holds His hands from me and brings me very low in this world's benefits. But blessed be His holy name, He does not deprive me of those religious and spiritual enjoyments so precious to the believer, and