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When I received your letter, I thought I would with this letter send to you $40.00 if I received Jan. wages in season; as you wrote that you could use it, & probably better than I should. But I have been up to Brattleboro lately you know, have purchased new coat & some books &c. & perhaps may not have enough besides to pay my board &c. The money however has not come round though I have signed payroll. It will be some 40. or 41.00. I have thought that perhaps I could not do letter this season than on receipt of my monthly stipend to forward what I do? not immediately need to your charge. I do not care about sending money to Jos. McKeen Esq. my creditor at Old Bond. till the year is out, Aug. and? perhaps it would hold out full as well in your keeping as mine. If I get a start in my business this year & pay up the hundred I owe I shall be? satisfied. Can I not lay up $500. the next? -- if -- Your remarks on conversation with companions are just. I think you have been unfortunate in Room Mates. though I do not know but you have had good as an average. Still they have not been right. I wish you & Eliab could room together. I rather think it would be good for both. Your reflections on receipt of letter from Milo I have thought upon they are worthy of thought. I will think thereon further. First, with there any thing in the letter received to induce such thoughts? If so, you ought in justice to have communicated. Your thoughts are of "probabilities". I can not think that light. possibilities. It is wise to foresee evil & be prepared for it. Still I think you are far too much inclined to look upon the dark side of things, especially of human nature. True the worst things are 'possible' whenever that is an element in the contingency, but in such case we have no right to say it is probable, to expect it, scarcely even to think it. I am afraid you are inclined from some reason to judge too harshly of one of our brothers, you look upon the worst side of his character & perhaps circumstances with your own character & feeling have shown you the worst part of that. You do not do justice this character; the sustained virtues of his life; the filial & fraternal excellencies he has shown.