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They are delicate, tender. affectionate, happy & I may say loving. I would be glad to tell you the happy influence they have upon my heart, my soul, my whole being. I am a new man. I am well convinced I could not have lived without Sarah. God & myself only know how deeply I love her. She does not know: and I don't know that I shall ever be able to tell her. But I think I can tell her enough to make her happy. If I can make her really happy I think I shall be the happiest man in the world. But Oh, Nathan, what trembling I have had about doing as I have done! About urging my suit as I have! Now I have striven & prayed to be led aright! I trust that we shall all see that the hand of our Father both led us.
Nathan don't think you are to loose Sarah where I gain her. She will still be all to you that she ever was. She will love you none the less, nor express it in less strong & tender terms. The love she will give me is different in kind from that she bears you. A Sister's & a wife's love are entirely different. If you & S. had not gone to Marietta you know not where you would have been, or what would have been your pecuniary standings. You might have done better than you have; you might have done far worse. I shall not breathe a word at M. about our relations, or my expectations to visit them. Betty B. has always known of my feelings for S. & of our positions. She knows it now. But I have charged her not to breathe to a mortal an lisp? & I feel sure she will not. Your relation to Josephine was whispered & talked about soon before I left there. I heard of it, but gave it no sensation. Whether it was died away or not I do not know. I wish no mortal ten to know or speak of Sarah & I, in our present relations. They will know it soon enough. I hate to be the subject of gossip.
Write me as often as you can, if it is only a little. Take good care of your health. I am glad you are to wait fill Sarah comes west. I dislike to have her travel so far alone. It would be lonely. From your affectionate brother Geo. Weaver