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bear him, but was always told he was very smart as very good &c& and sometimes it was hinted he wanted R. but I considered it like all such things a mere joke, more especially because Jane asked her how she liked him, and she said she did not care for him only as an acquaintance so as he was so disagreeable to me, and I always told her I thought him so awful ugly it never entered my head she had any thoughts of such a thing nor do I believe she ever would. At first I did not feel so much opposition but the more I know and think about it the worse it seems, but tho it makes me very unhappy to think of it. I will try to behave well and if I must, submit with a good grace. Could I feel that her attachment is deep and sincere and that she would be happy. I would yield at once so dear you understand my position and feelings. Pa is not better, he was quite sick thursday evening, but is better today and yesterday, his pulse is always up to 100, has wretched nights, and is losing strength and flesh, some nights I fell afraid to have him sleep alone but he will have no one, and still refuses all attention except such as he absolutely needs, he is looking for some one to take charge of his estate, Papa's and Uncle's, and is anxious to settle up every thing. Offers the house and buggy for sale, he was hurried into this by an almost accident the other day. Mr. Wills and Charlotte were riding and the horse scared a little on the hill beyond Sharp's tan yard. Mr. W. reined him in, he began to kick and run. Mr. W. turned up against the fence and so stopped him but before they could get out the dasher was broken thro' Mr. W. was kicked on the knee (but slightly) and both shafts broken and one of them ran into the ground. Charlotte was so much taken up about the buggy she did not get frightened , she walked in as far as Wishart's when Mr. Wills met her in another buggy, all safe and well. Pa went with much difficulty to Hay's shop yesterday to see him about selling it, he asks 200 for the horse.