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myself I can do nothing. I feel it very sensibly. June 27. Sabbath I feel more as if I was quite out at the West than I have before; Started for meeting {in the sch.house 2 miles distant this morning} with others in such a vehicle as we could unclear insertion lumber waggon - with 3 seats and two horses. The school house was full and at noon a Sabbath school was organized -They have had none before quite a large school for the beginning. I have had thrown upon me the responsible charge of a Bible class now numbering 10 - young ladies. I was requested to take it and declined and supposed nothing more would be said but then it was announced to the class aloud that I would be teacher and I concluded to make no farther excuses but do as well as I could. unclear for help in him without whom I can do nothing. This after noon at four o'clock went to meeting at my school house. Mr. Knapp preaches in the sch. h. in one part of the little unclear in the forenoon and in the other part in the afternoon. He is quite as good a preacher as I expected. Can't think much of dear parent and brothers today. It makes my lip quiver and the tears start if I do. How happy I should have been at home with them this summer, but I am in the path of duty, all is well. Perhaps there are happy summers in store for me yet with them. So I'll hope on. Jun 29. Have now 17 scholars see that troubles me is governing. O unclear I do not unclear line he is so full of all mischief; The verse in Daily Good this morning is cheering - "Thou art my hiding place - though shalt preserve me from trouble". "how are thy servants blessed by the Lord - his love is their defence. Eternal Wisd. is their guide, their help, Omnipotence, Oh may eternal wisdom guide me through. I am so sinful and unworthy. Him alone is my hope. July 1. Now 18 pupils - O that I may do my duty to them. Paul may plant and Apollos water but God must give the increase." I think much of parents & brothers - mother sitting all alone. July 4th Sabbath - Went this forenoon to the school house to meeting Mr. Knapp gone to St. Charles. So we had no preaching, but quite an intensely prayer meeting and Sabbath school. Oh that I thought less of this world and more of God's glory, I think I desire to do good and to be useful to those among whom I am placed am afraid my motives are wrong. Search me and know my heart and lead into the right way O my savior. Oh may my dear parents & brothers have God's blessing abundantly He knows their wants